Chris went away on a work trip to Las Vegas last week (yes without me) – I had to survive six days (4 working) and five over nighters with the kids (2 who still get up in the night). I was slightly dreading it, but was mostly in denial that it was actually happening until he walked out of the door with his suitcase. I looked at the kids, they looked at me…oh crap it’s happening. And then I took them all to my parents house…
But six days later, everything was under control and surprisingly I could still function. My brain did feel like it was going to explode at any minute with all the things I had to remember but thankfully I held it together.
My life is pretty hectic day to day and each evening as I go to bed, I generally feel quite pleased that I’ve made it through another day. But surviving on my own with the kids took it to another level – and yes I did buy myself some presents to celebrate.
So this one is for the single mums – you have the toughest job in the world. Sometimes we need to go through tough times, to realise just how tough we are too. I am realising with each week that goes by, just how strong I am – don’t get me wrong, I have my moments when I say ‘I can’t do this’ and I almost break, then Chris, my family, my friends give me encouragement or step in to give me a break and I re-charge. Weeks like this make me realise that I can achieve anything! But no-one can do everything, all of the time, on their own, with no support.
A song came on in the car this week, which I wanted to share – if you’re having a tough week, have a listen to it! It’s called Beautiful Flower by India Arie:
Here’s to making it…
‘This is a song for every girl who’s, ever been through, something she thought she couldn’t make it through.
I sing these words because I was that girl too, wanting something better than this. But who do I turn to?
Now we’re moving from the darkness into the light, this is the defining moment of our lives…
Cause you’re beautiful like a flower, more valuable than a diamond.
You are powerful like a fire, you can heal the world with your mind.
There is nothing in the world that you cannot do, when you believe in you, who are beautiful.
Yeah you, who are brilliant,
Yeah you, who are powerful,
Yeah you, who are resilient.
Yeah you, this song is for you, you are brilliant.’